Once in my life I deam of a perfect love, but I realized that there is no such perfect in this world.Only TIME is only constant in this world. I love a person once in my life, it is almost 4 years ago, but sad to say its not a happy ending.
But…..that love came back when I meet a person in the game.He came into my life dated last 2008 around May….den we became close lately, we decided to meet the day before his birthday, we talk and eat hehehehhh.
We update ourselves through text and in the game.He started courting me and luckily I answered him. I dont know why but there is something in him that I loved the most.I learned to love him more and more everytime, even though sometimes he is so hot tempered and stubborn, but that thing is not a big deal for me.I just adjust myself coz I dont like conflicts.
But then again our lovestory is not perfect too…..it end up to a hurtful breakup and it hurts me so bad…..ouchhhhhhhhhh(looya nako woi).
His cold feelings started after the THE SINULOG FESTIVAL 2009, I dont know why oh why, his attention and love for me starts to fade away little by little(hangtod nagkadako)>>>vernacular mode.I dont why coz i didnt do wrong to him.(takot nga ako magkamali sa harap nya eh).The situation goes on,until one day, I took the courage to ask him”WHY” he just answered ” SORRY ” ouch(my heart is aching and my tears starts to fall) He himself doesnt know the reason why his feelings for me starts to fade away.he also told me that there is no third party invove, his just confused in our situation, maybe because we dont have much time with each other, we often see each other,and the the lack of time maybe the main reason for this.
After deciding for a breakup my world seems to stop for a while and my tears starts to fall, I just answered him ok if thats what you want, maybe we just need more time to know more each other.We need space in order for us to realize and think if we are really meant to each other.As of now I dont have any updates on him beacuse he deleted me on his list of friends here in friendster, I dont why again, but I am already tired of asking to him why he did it.I want to correct this I add him back on friendster and he accepts it.......were frends again on that site.
It hurts to know to love a person so much but in return it will just turn into a hurtful breakup, but I have to accept the truth in order for me to move on. I just enjoyed myself with my friends and my family. Even though we are already separated but still my love and care for him might not be the same but its still there.,maybe im just stupid. As of now we are friends,I am happy that he finish his studies,and I am still at his side whatever step that he may take in order to be succesful in life.,maybe today he is taking his review for his CIVIL SERVICE exam, he can count my prayer!( lucky for him he is taking his civil service exam ako hndi pah wahaahaaaha….BZ sa work weh).
The next time we will see each other…..is a the time that we will be a good friends.Maybe the LORD has better plans for the both of us .Time will only tell.
I just want to tell him that maybe I am not the perfect lover for him, but I can be a good friend to him.
Thanks for the oppurtunity to love you.
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